Y Saturday, January 30, 2010 Y
这天看来不是什么特别的一天，但是对我而言，有乐有哀。此外，29也是一个漫长的一天。
WENDY,
Ha-Ha-Ha-Happy Birthday to you!!! 我想要和你道歉因为我真的忘了祝福你。直到凌晨12点，你这个胡涂又忙碌的朋友才记得你。你说改打吗? Pls forgive if you happen to read my blog
:) Hope you had an enjoyable cum wonderful day with your loved ones and friends。Stay cheerful and sweet! 我们会在2月2日见面，同时其他姐妹们（Amy, Esther, XiuXian）也会到来相聚，聊个有的没的。这是我安排的一种小礼物给你，希望你会喜欢和开心!那对Wendy，29 是个
开开乐乐的一天。。。
在29日的2.30分，我和经理约了，就在她的房间见面。今天内容很简单- Appraisal review. 坦白说，我很讨厌做Appraisal. 我不清楚从哪里开始。在这个工作社会里，Appraisal 是很难避免的。他会使你升级或不升级，加薪或不加薪的一个重要过程。很多人就是在期待这一天，先天以近做了种种的准备和功课来交上成绩单。今天的问题不在于我讨厌做Appraisal， 而是我本身所赵成的心理结- Knot。一开始和经理说的话都没问题，我们俩很自然的陷入重点。一小段的review就这样的完成了。
When we are at competencies, the mood changed. It was me. Tears were welling in my eyes. She told me about her discovery. I listened to her analysis, together with drawings and explanations.
BINGO- she hit the jackpot! Since 2009, when I discovered this problem of my, I wanted badly and was struggling hard to put forward to her. In fact I could not express myself clearly, which is why it was displayed via my mannerisms, attitude and behavior instead. I am actually glad that she found out through her own ways otherwise it will never be made known. For me to reveal to her will take even a decade or so, if I am still there!
Freaking idiot, my emotions get the better of me, I cried hard. We rushed out of the room, took the lift up to
rooftop- my fav place :) the atmosphere was more relaxing and less serious with the breeze and baby blue sky around. I literally could not control my emotions in front of her. I cried hard. She was consoling, which showed that she truly cares for me. I felt disappointed to her plus with the stress I’m experiencing at that moment, I just pour out to her without saying a word. This went on for 15mins. She remarked “There must be a solution. Do you think your mum, friends or I can help you? If you are struck in your thoughts, come to me alright?” I know where she is coming from, she mean me well of course.
In short, I don’t know what to do yet to change myself my mindset. I only know I have to focus on my projects now which are due very soon. Time is running out on me again and again. I may appear that I am escaping from this issue but hear me out, now is not the time for this nonsense of my. I will I promise I will do something, allow me to extend time.
Big girls don’t cry, easier said then done. Even though I felt ashamed to tear in front of my manager as I know I appeared to be strong or tough on the outside but who knows I am a weakling inside…? 我会常识改变自己。。。
给我力量。。。那对Melody，29 是个
泪洗着脸和悲哀的一天。。。
幸好，那晚有
阿妹阿密特救了我。。。
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